Some of us are very good at putting things off – I became a pro at this.  I convinced myself that I worked better under pressure and would wait until the very last minute to start something that needed to be done.

It was so much easier to focus on the things I wanted to do rather than tackling something that should be done.  And if I missed a deadline or avoided doing something completely, I could easily blame others or minimize its importance.

A lot of us have learned the hard way that recovery is a process and it is dangerous to stand still, rather than taking action.  But I now know that if I’m not moving forward in my recovery, I will revert back to my old ways of thinking and behaving, making relapse almost inevitable.

To be successful at anything, including recovery, we need to face what has to be done and take the action needed to accomplish it.

I myself had work to do to clean up the past and I had a lot of fear around it.  But I knew that moving forward in recovery meant change and part of that change was facing my fears.  It would have been easy to wait until I was backed into a corner, but that would be the very behavior I wanted to change.

By accomplishing some of the work slowly and not overwhelming myself, my self-esteem began to improve – I started to feel like a person again.  I also discovered that many of my fears around the issues were unfounded.

Experience has taught me that procrastinating is not a healthy behavior.  If I avoid or delay doing the necessary work, it will only create new problems and that is something I don’t need or want in my life.  My motto is “do it now” because it will improve my life in the long run.

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03Oct 2017

THE START The very start of recovery is Socialization at 12 step meetings. The first part of that is finding a HOME group. In effect finding a section of people that will accept you, warts and all. That is they shake your hand and introduce themselves, I hated that part when they asked if I […]

12Jul 2017

Lead by an experienced Addictions Counsellor, the groups include such discussion topics as: Understanding Relapse (how it happens and how to avoid it) Personality of an Addicted (tolerance, anxiety, grandiosity) Relapse Warning Signs (attitude & behavior changes, H.A.L.T.) Setting Goals for Relapse Prevention The sessions are held every Thursday afternoon at 2:30 p.m. in our […]

12May 2017

I personally hate dealing with conflict! It makes me feel extremely uncomfortable and like my skin is crawling. I would rather just ignore it or change everything. I had a very bad outlook on life and thought that people were generally useless stupid and selfish creatures who only cared for themselves. Although I am not […]

12May 2017

Commitments, who needs them? Well as it turns out, to have a successful life everyone does. In my life before recovery I had no problem making commitments to other people and following through with them. I needed people to like me and feel like I was useful and I could only do that through the […]

30Aug 2016
thoughts on gratitude after addiction recovery

Every once in a while, I forget to be grateful for what I have gained this past year in recovery and the people who have given me continued support.  I admit it is still easy for me to focus on the negative instead of the positive. One day this past week, I sat down and […]

04Jul 2016
Finding Happiness

Coming into recovery gives all of us a chance to turn our lives around. It certainly did for me. For a long time, alcohol was the only thing that made me happy or gave me any sense of comfort. Of course, it was only a temporary, fleeting happiness. Once I got sober, I had to […]

27Jun 2016
work hard and stay humble after recovering from addiction

It is very easy for those of us in recovery to forget where we came from – we can sometimes have a very short memory.  We suddenly forget how we started our lives in recovery – and those people who helped us along the way. Some of us can even let our ego make us […]

22Jun 2016
recovery takes time

Thinking back, I realize how easy it was to be on what we in recovery call “the pink cloud”.  This had something of a positive affect – it drove my excitement and confidence in returning to a sober life. I also knew that the enthusiasm I had could be a double-edged sword, because it could […]

10Jun 2016
now vs then after addiction recovery

My journey in recovery began a year ago.  The feelings I had then were ones of despair and depression.  Thankfully, I became convinced that returning to treatment was the only answer.  During this first year, I have had a healthy fear of relapse coupled with a very strong desire to maintain my sobriety.  I have […]