In looking back over the past year, I have come to realize that while there are temptations and triggers out there, I really don’t want to go back to my life before sobriety.
The emotional roller-coaster I live on back then was unhealthy – one day I was happy, the next I wanted to die or at the very least disappear from the planet. Now, my life is much more serene. I’m happy most days which improves not only my self-esteem but my physical health as well.
When I’m alone now, I don’t feel lonely because I know I have friends and family to talk to, or 12-step meetings I can attend if being alone gets to be too much.
Starting over with virtually nothing has not been easy. I admit there have been times when I have questioned whether it is all worth it, but then I think back to where I was a year ago – unhealthy in mind, body and spirit. I still don’t have a lot of money or possessions but what I do have has made me richer than ever.