I have come to realize recently that my old habits, particularly the habit of negative thinking, are slowly disappearing.

A situation arose this week where I live and I did not react to it the way I would have nine months ago.  The “old” me would have gone into a tailspin.  I would have been angry, frustrated and ultimately depressed.  It is likely that if I didn’t have the tools I have gained since coming into recovery, I would have headed straight out for a drink.  Because I am conscious of changing my habits, my thinking is changing as well and as a result, the thought of relapse did not even occur to me.

I have changed my habit of considering everything in black and white, right or wrong, and the result is that I can now look at situations such as happened this week in a neutral way.

I did some soul searching and knew that, first, the situation is completely out of my control.  Getting upset or angry (or negative) about the issue would only hurt myself.  I didn’t cause the issue, and I could not take it personally.  It was not the end of the world.

I then sat down and thought about all the things I have to be grateful for.  I knew that gratitude outweighs any negative issues I might come up against.

I realized that when I change my old thought patterns, which were habitual, I can overcome obstacles in my life.  What is important is how I react to certain issues.   Changing habits means that my behaviours are healthier, and I can find humour where I used to find frustration.  What is most important is that I refuse to let something come between me and my serenity.  It is possible to look at things in a positive light.  And for that I am grateful.

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